Writing every day

MASTER has told me that i will blog, at minimum, once every day and that, some day, i will appreciate this and being able to look back at my journey as HIS slave (and how much i have grown).  i have learned, thanks to MASTER'S help that i am capable of writing, but some days, i just don't feel creative.  Believe me, i am not that creative to begin with so on an even less creative day, this task can be quite daunting.  Today is one of those days.  On top of it, MASTER has asked me attempt to write a short fantasy (if i am able to).  Why can't i just let my imagination go?

Being MASTER'S property has taught me that i can let go.  i can let go of control.  i can let go of all feelings and emotions as they arise (in a respectful manner of course).  i can let go of anger, as there is no true value in anger.  i can take hold of healthy habits by letting go of things that are/were unhealthy.  i can even let go of repressing things and handle what memories and emotions come from that.  This morning was an absolute test.  i woke up around 4:30 am from a horrible nightmare.  i had not dreamed, of any kind that i could remember, since i was a kid, and the dreams from my childhood were actually only one nightmare that recurred many times and just added on each time and one other nightmare that i had only on one occasion.  The nightmare this morning reminded me a lot of the childhood nightmares, or at least of how i felt when i woke up from them.  i remember hiding under my bed and wrapping every sheet and blanket in the room around me to "protect" me from all sides.  i would sleep like that for days with the light on next to my bed until i finally mustered up the strength to actually climb in bed and sleep normally again.  i do not question my slavery.  i am the happiest i have ever been as MASTER'S slave and i truly know what the meaning of ownership is.  i did, for the first time, realize just how deep ownership is and how much i will "accept" as worthwhile to be MASTER'S property.  Amazingly, i will return to bed tonight (although i did not this morning) and i will "chance" another nightmare.  The difference is, now, that i have a loving and caring MASTER who will help me through the emotions and i truly believe that i will become a better person and slave for this, no matter how hard it is to deal with the emotions.  Let's look at the plus side of the nightmare.....the "possessed" "thing" (at the sake of going into detail) did kill my ex-husband and in a painful way.  Payback is a *@#* if even in a dream.

Well, it is just about time for bed.  i have things i must accomplish before i call it a night and MASTER has told me that i will be in bed no later than 11pm, so i close with this....  Each night, i say my good night "prayer" or mantra, as i would prefer to call it.  i would love to share it with you as it gives me so much happiness to end my day with it every day (especially now that i finally memorized all of it).....

The day is done and i have served the one

HE is my everything

From pleasure to pain, HIS happiness to gain

i give HIM all of me

May tomorrow bring, if only one thing

a better slave for HIM

To use and torture, and even more torture

garbage at HIS feet

A slut, a whore, a cunt and more

Everything that HE needs

The smaller i go, the more i will grow

and become quality property.

As this day must end and to HIM i send

an "i love YOU" on my knees.

For to HIM i owe my everything

Good night from YOUR slave nothing

The position i am in each night as i recite (with a few marks to brighten up the picture as well)