An ever changing MASTER

The title of this blog should be "an ever changing MASTER who is forever changing HIS slave for the better".  

MASTER does tend to change things up quite a bit.  HE likes rituals but the rituals do not always stay the same.  For instance, HE may order HIS slave to pee in a shot glass and send HIM a picture and a report every time she pees.  The report is to include color, smell, and taste.  she is certain that there is more than one reason why HE orders this - possibly for the control, to make sure that she is drinking enough, or even to watch for health issues such as denoted by sweet tasting urine, etc.  Although, the reason does not matter, simple obedience does.  This ritual has come, gone, and is back yet once again.  she enjoys MASTER'S rituals but is growing from the fact that HE does change them at times, or "put them at the wayside" for a bit. 

Polar opposite, MASTER is helping HIS slave to become a much better person, student, mother, employee, and, of course, slave.  A while back, shortly after the 1-year anniversary or HIS ownership of HIS slave, MASTER ordered her to write how she had changed in the last year.  she would like to include that list here:

How i have changed in the last year....................

i don't quit unless i have absolutely done my best and just fell short

i don't think about day to day survival, but rather how to make each day better than the day before

i allow my children to be young adults and make their own mistakes sometimes

i have lost substantial weight and do look a lot better

i start each day and end each day grounded in who and what i am (as a mother, student, and slave)

i have enough room in my heart to love another adult, my MASTER

i have learned much more patience and much more self-control

i have learned that even when i feel like there is nothing left, there usually is

i have learned that i can squirt and that i can face my biggest fears (needles, for example)

i am starting to feel sexy at times

i take better care of my home

i have learned to embrace degradation and showing the world that i am MASTER'S property

i feel happier than i have ever in my life

i have a better home than i did a year ago and my children have more "things" to enjoy

i have learned that i can enjoy the theatre (among other treats) without feeling guilty

i have prioritized my life and do have a 'plan' for my future

i have been naked in public and even look somewhat forward to the next time

i have found that the safety i feel as MASTER'S slave is a safety that i have never felt

i have learned to stand up for myself a bit more

i have learned that i can write and with some skill and do not need to run from it

i have a journal

my hair is much longer and feels much more feminine

This list was compiled almost two months ago, and it amazes me how many more things i truly should add to this list (which i will do soon). MASTER is a very demanding MASTER, but is also a very patient and caring MASTER.  HE pushes me to grow in all ways possible and has truly "trained" me to be a much better 'nothing'.  There are a multitude of reasons why HE is my EVERYTHING.